For years I have had an “open door” policy when it was related to my illness. I had no problems talking about it, and I didn’t keep it very secret. But after much thought, problems, co-workers, and family, I’m seriously considering changing my personal policy.

The problem is that there are too many people that seem to think that they know what I’m going through, that they too have the same problem, or that they are an expert in chronic pain.

I get tired, no tired is a good word, I get exhausted from hearing people talk about how much pain they are in when I talk about my issues. Usually, it is something like, “yeah, my bones hurt too”. And internally my response is, “really, so they hurt so much most all day long that it makes you cry at times and you can’t focus on your life?”. I mean everyone on the planet seems to be in so much pain that it makes me feel like my issues are just not that important. With that being said and following the thought that everyone is in pain, then maybe I’m not in as much pain as I think.

I always thought that I had a high threshold of pain. I could burn myself and not notice, I have cut my hand, arm, and leg dozens of times and never noticed. But then again, maybe everyone is like that and I’m just a wimp with my pain.

If I go down this road, then my new philosophy is that “mum’s the word”, no more talking about it in public. Then that means it will be the end of my blog, at least my personal posts. Thanks to the one or two of you that followed and read my posts. Since writing has been a great therapy for me, I will still write, just likely not post anything in public.