I Got the COVID Vaccine First Dose

First, again let me state that I’m not an anti-vaxxer, and second, I’m not scared of COVID, I’m not going to live my life in fear and last, I’m not scared of needles. In fact, I have the distinction of making a phlebotomist pass out once. It was in Homestead, Florida and that bloodmobile was visiting our building and a buddy of mine was donating blood (back in the day, I donated all the time and even had a gallon pin somewhere). They hooked us both up and then he and I had a race to see who could bleed the fastest and fill up our bag first. Well, this somehow grossed out the phlebotomist and she got lightheaded and dropped like a lead balloon. It was funny and sad at the same time. I think it was the whole experience that grossed her out. We both asked if we could put in our own needle and then we kept squeezing the “Stress ball” to increase the blood flow. It is sad to say that Greg won, but only by a few seconds (he was tapped first too).

Back to the vaccine, I went to the local Walgreens and I waited for my name to be called. I haven’t been this nervous and unsure about something in a very long time, I mean 30 years or more. They call my name and I go in and then I get the jab. I leave the office and I’m immediately filled with regret. I felt like I just had “Dumbass” tattooed on my forehead. I couldn’t believe that I once again had no control over what the Government did to my body.

There are millions of people that fight daily to keep the Government from controlling their lives and here I just buckled down and folded like a cheap lawn chair, just to keep my job. I know damn well that this will be a long drawn-out battle in the courts with thousands of employees (there are over 2 million federal employees in the US), fighting it out. And I have ALWAYS been one to fight for what is right and for the very first time in my life I folded. I didn’t fight for what was right.

Why didn’t I fight you might ask? Besides having RA, Fibro, bad knees, and pain throughout my body, very recently I have been fighting some nerve-racking cardiac issues that I can’t manage to see a cardiologist about. In my area, they are all booked up for months. I can go to the ER, but our ER only wants to stabilize you and then send you to your primary care for further evaluation and management. And my primary care doctor quit and the one I’m using right now doesn’t give two craps about anything, period. As an example, I went to see them for testicle pain over a period of a few years. It was off and on again, and I was standing in the office and I explained to the doctor what was going on, she literally touched my thigh (mind you, I’m still fully dressed and wearing blue jeans) about 5-6 inches below my crotch and said that she doesn’t see anything wrong. The only good thing is that when I asked, she gave me a referral to a specialist. Long story short here, yep, cyst on each of the boys.

Here I am a few days later and well, I still feel like a dumbass, but what is done is done.

I have so many co-workers who are fully vaccinated and they still got COVID. When I talk with them, they are in the same boat, why are we being forced to get the vaccine, it doesn’t work.