It is hard to tell if this damn Enbrel is actually doing anything. Right now, I’m in the middle of a very nasty fibro flare (this is written after the flare as I had no desire or energy to write during it). I’m so freaking exhausted, I get up and immediately take a couple of hour nap. I’m sleeping more than I’m doing anything. I know how bad this affects my family as they count on me and I’m being lazy and in bed all day, all week for that matter. I’m tired, irritable, have no desire to do anything, and have no appetite, I’m just treading water and wishing I could stop that too.

My tendons feel like they are so tight and they are really hurting my hands, arms, feet, and legs today. Even my neck, shoulders, and back are so sore today. The lights are killing my eyes, causing a headache and I wish everyone would just chill and be quiet today.

None of my medications seem to be doing anything to help me with any of this. My hands are on fire as are my feet. My compression gloves aren’t working, ugh, I want this to end and end right here, right now.